Sheer Dumb Luck: the unofficial title for my self portrait

So on the sheet we had to write comments about all the self portraits, I wrote on mine "My next self portrait will be me burning this one". This was before we even showed mine. I was so frustrated with the filming of this, that I submitted the film pissed off, and I refused to watch it. Yet for some reason, the film worked. Or at least the class thought it worked (again I didn't watch the final product). When it was shown, I had a mini-heart attack because the sound was on and I really didn't want it there. But it fit kind of perfectly. I liked Gabby's statement of how the sound of a person typing tells their personality. I was also shocked when Shannon wanted to talk about it. I thought for sure she was going to comment on the editing, color correction, or quality, saying how rushed it look. That didn't happen though.
I had all of these ideas of "edgy" and "super experimental" shots, but they didn't work due to time constraints of filming last minute, or because a technology inept 22 year-old decided to work alone. I really wanted to push myself as a filmmaker (and I mean that in the loosest term possible), trying more creative shots and editing effects just say "I'm not terrible and I do belong in the class". With the final result, I don't know if it's raw and vulnerable because of it's simplicity. I don't know if it's too simple that it verges on amateur. It's conflicting to me because it's about a very personal time in my life that I wanting to share, but I don't have an emotional attachments with the final cut. It's a bunch of accidents that managed to be good. Or as Minerva McGonagall would describe it